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The one with love, somewhere in between

Apr. 24th, 2012 | 12:25 pm

Four months ago, around this time.
I was on my way meeting you for the first time, officially.
And I fell in love, somewhere in between our laughs, long talks,
stupid little fights, differences, and jokes.

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The one with "there's something about him".

Apr. 23rd, 2012 | 02:25 pm


So where should I start?
Because all I believe is that, we met for a reason. And I'm hoping that it is a good one.
I was all about standards and expectations, despite being a damsel in distress.
Fast cars, big bikes, cold cash, class and reputation.
I know I was, despite telling everyone I wasn't.
But there's something about you, that made me allowed myself to compromise.
Maybe, I thought, I was making an exception.
I was, am, attracted to you. There was no denying it.
You're oozing with a kind of brain-numbing smart ass sexual appeal.
I always thought I am the better one with the other guys.
Smarter, cooler, classier.
Because one way or another, I know I always gonna get what I want, my way.
I didn't even have to put my charm to work.
But there's something about you, that challenge me. Outside in, inside out.
You outwit me, hanging my ego on your rope.
And most of the time you won't even bother trying to give in.
But you didn't give up hope.
I know you are making me a better girl.
And I'm falling in love trying to prove to you that I can.
You saw the guilt beneath my shame.
You saw the scars the remain.
And now I only have you as my best friend.
I only have you, to call friend.

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The hello stranger.

Jan. 24th, 2012 | 01:10 pm

When the first time I met you exactly a month ago,
I never thought you would mean so much to me.
In just a short period of time.

And I promise to never fall in love with a stranger.

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The counting days

Nov. 21st, 2011 | 02:19 pm

Fifty-four days.
Fifty-four days since the last time that I saw your face.
Fifty-four days is making me older.

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The learning

Nov. 17th, 2011 | 10:37 am

It has been 15 days, 360 hours, 21600 minutes, 1296000 seconds
since I last heard from you.
Even though the last text you sent wasn't worth remembering.
Because all you did was to curse me.
But I forgave you in that moment.
I don't know how you did this to me.

I love you in a language that I don’t fully understand.
In words that I haven’t found enough courage to forklift out of my chest.
I hear karma is vengeful and also a light sleeper so I’ve chosen to love you like this.

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The one that got away

Nov. 16th, 2011 | 09:33 pm

Let’s be honest, I’m always going to have that ache in my heart for you, I’m always going to love you,
and you will always cross my mind from time to time.
It’s not about getting over you, it’s about burying the feelings and learning to ignore the aches and pains.
You walked away, and now I just need to learn to survive.
I’m doing what I need to do for me, even if that means disappearing for a while.
And congratulations,
you're doing a pretty good job killing me.

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The one staying away

Oct. 26th, 2011 | 02:52 pm

It's killing me to stay away from you.
But I'm doing it anyway.
I'm halfway there.
But hey, I still miss you.
I hope you're doing fine without me.
Well, I know you are.

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The blame game

Oct. 9th, 2011 | 06:44 pm

I didn't know I can shatter to pieces like this because of you.
It's all because of you.

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The seventh death

Oct. 7th, 2011 | 06:34 pm

Seven months ago was the first time I saw you.
But this very day, you killed me.
Rest in peace dear heart.
Rest in peace Sharifah Aishah Mustika.

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The anonymous boyfriend question

Oct. 4th, 2011 | 08:28 pm

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